holidays and revelations.

We're finally on holidays. It's a pretty good feeling. No uni work, no especially tedious obligations... just fun, free time and potential money-making opportunities. There's not much else I can say about holidays, really, since they only started recently. But Jiangu's back from Canberra for a while, which is good ^^

So that was the 'holidays' part of the post. Now comes the second [longer] part. Hem. 

I've turned into a megabitch. I don't know when or how it happened, but the other day I realized that I say mean things, for which I have no form of justification. It's not like I even have to TRY to be horrible; I just say the wrong thing ALL the time. And it sucks, because one, I don't know why I do it, and two, the words slip out of my mouth and by the time I realize that it was a mean thing to say, it's too late to take them back. So I'm going to try to think longer before I actually open my mouth to speak. Maybe my people skills are getting even rustier or something, and I'm forgetting how to be nice. I should probably figure out where I went wrong and fix it, unless I want to die alone and unloved. Which I don't. Obviously. [People say "die alone in a hole" all the time, but I changed it, seeing as the "in a hole" bit, although it has a nice ring to it, doesn't make a lot of sense. Just saying.]

Also, upon further self examination, I think I'm too suspicious and critical of people I don't know. Which I should ALSO get over, unless I want to die alone and blah blah blah, except I'm not exactly sure how to go about it >_>  So yeah... I've figured out why I can't make friends at uni. Now I just have to find a way to get over myself and make better habits. Easier said than done. 

Just for the record, I don't dedicate time to sitting around in a room by myself examining the inner workings of my mind and soul xD  Things happen, and sometimes something'll click, and I'll be like "Oh. *take mental note*. That might be why __[insert something here___]". Just incase you all start thinking I'm a complete freak O.o

Anyways. I tried to go for a run earlier, but I got about a quarter of the way around the park before I realized that it was getting really dark really fast. And being in Centennial Park alone at night isn't the best thing ever. So as a result, I got home early, and my parents are still at the gym. So I'll go and make an attempt to be the dutiful daughter, and do dinner preparation whatnot. 

Much love.