holidays and revelations.

We're finally on holidays. It's a pretty good feeling. No uni work, no especially tedious obligations... just fun, free time and potential money-making opportunities. There's not much else I can say about holidays, really, since they only started recently. But Jiangu's back from Canberra for a while, which is good ^^

So that was the 'holidays' part of the post. Now comes the second [longer] part. Hem. 

I've turned into a megabitch. I don't know when or how it happened, but the other day I realized that I say mean things, for which I have no form of justification. It's not like I even have to TRY to be horrible; I just say the wrong thing ALL the time. And it sucks, because one, I don't know why I do it, and two, the words slip out of my mouth and by the time I realize that it was a mean thing to say, it's too late to take them back. So I'm going to try to think longer before I actually open my mouth to speak. Maybe my people skills are getting even rustier or something, and I'm forgetting how to be nice. I should probably figure out where I went wrong and fix it, unless I want to die alone and unloved. Which I don't. Obviously. [People say "die alone in a hole" all the time, but I changed it, seeing as the "in a hole" bit, although it has a nice ring to it, doesn't make a lot of sense. Just saying.]

Also, upon further self examination, I think I'm too suspicious and critical of people I don't know. Which I should ALSO get over, unless I want to die alone and blah blah blah, except I'm not exactly sure how to go about it >_>  So yeah... I've figured out why I can't make friends at uni. Now I just have to find a way to get over myself and make better habits. Easier said than done. 

Just for the record, I don't dedicate time to sitting around in a room by myself examining the inner workings of my mind and soul xD  Things happen, and sometimes something'll click, and I'll be like "Oh. *take mental note*. That might be why __[insert something here___]". Just incase you all start thinking I'm a complete freak O.o

Anyways. I tried to go for a run earlier, but I got about a quarter of the way around the park before I realized that it was getting really dark really fast. And being in Centennial Park alone at night isn't the best thing ever. So as a result, I got home early, and my parents are still at the gym. So I'll go and make an attempt to be the dutiful daughter, and do dinner preparation whatnot. 

Much love. 

Death in the form of a take home exam.

I HATE SOCIOLOGY. IT'S A FUCKING PLAGUE. No, actually, it's worse than a plague. What's worse than a plague...? Okay, fine, it's death. Death followed by the butchering of the body parts, followed by burning in hell for all eternity, followed by the unceremonious digging up of the butchered body parts, followed by the consumption of the rotting flesh by a cannibal. Who happens to have a plague. That's what sociology is.

You'd think that a take home exam would be easier. Well, at least I thought that a take home exam would be easier. But in reality, it's not. In reality it's death followed by the butchering of the body parts, followed by burning in hell for all eternity, followed by the unceremonious digging up of the butchered body parts, followed by the consumption of the rotting flesh by a cannibal who happens to have a plague.

I'd rather have a normal exam, I think. Just cos you do it, and then it's over. You can't get up from doing a normal exam and go "I think I'll go check my facebook now, and come back and finish this later". You can't get up from a normal exam and go type up a blog entry just cos you can't be fucked putting in the effort just at the moment. Hell, you don't have to use full referencing in a normal exam. My take home exam questions came out on friday, and they're due on wednesday. As of now, I've written two incomplete piece of shit introductions for two separate questions, and have NO idea what I'm talking about. So now all I have to do is finish the two essays I started, write two more, and then I'm done. Joy. Granted, they don't have to be too long [600-900 words each], but the questions are all horrible. For example, the one I was trying to do just before I decided I didn't want to think about it any more was: "Race, Ethnicity and nation are often understood as social and political constructs whose membership and meaning are shifting and contested. Critically discuss this claim with reference to contemporary Australian identity". I swear to god my brain shut off as soon as I saw the word 'political' thrown in there ==" *bashes head against keyboard* Not to mention that half the questions want you to relate things to contemporary Australian society. GAH >_<""""""""

I should probably go now... I've had my mini rant. If I pass this exam I'm going to be ridiculously proud of myself.